So. We're back in New York
And its cold
And I miss my family and friends
And I haven't gotten a shower today (I thought I was going to have time to go to the gym)
And my room is a mess
And Liam doesn't want to go to sleep
and I'm wondering if I'm done with this stay at home and take care of the baby thing.
Maybe I'll be happier in a office, talking to grown ups insted of cleaning throw up.
Maybe my time is better spent doing law than ironing
Or maybe I need to find a solution I just can't see tonight. Liam is tired but he doesn't want to sleep, I'm tired but I still need to clean up.
Don't get me wrong. I love my life and being able to take care of my littles, but is hard to enjoy a baby when there's just so much to do. How do people do it?
I should go ahead and call Maria so she can clean the house and iron once a week even though it's like $400 a month.
I should use the babysitting service at the gym even though I can only work out for 20/30 minutes before they call me because Liam is crying.
I should remember that he will only be a baby for 4 more months. And that he might be my last.
I need to think about all the cute things he did today and realize that I would not have seen then if I was working.
I need to remember that this is my choice and that I can always change my mind.
And then I feel better
One week until thanks giving!
I'm thankful for this crazy life I'm living. After all, my house is messy but my heart is full.